Hapy birthday, my shining star


After five years I thought I’d know everything there was to know about the gifts Max brought into my life, yet each year I’ve continued to grow in new ways that tie back to those beautiful 16 days we had together.

2012 was all about resilience, 2013 about empathy. 2014 came and went and with it, the return of peace. In 2015, I got incredibly honest about what I wanted from life.

And yet, since Max’s last birthday I’ve realized yet another and it’s my favorite one of all…love. A capacity to love that I thought was reserved only for Max. A boldness to love completely: in spite of impermanence, in the face of uncertainty, and perhaps most importantly, without fear. If there were just one gift I could keep with me forever, this depth of love for my family and friends, old and new, would be enough.

Thank you, Maxy. I love you.


Stolen Imagery!

Let’s not forget the time that some guy stole a pic of Max and put it up asking for prayers!

It got over 50,000 likes, 15,000 comments, and 800 shares, meaning that Max has surpassed the reach of my years of social media effort in one fell swoop.




That was a weird time.


Mad Max

Some strange coincidences with Mad Max Fury Road.
A. It comes out right at Max’s 3 year Bday.
B. It’s awesome like Max.
C. When Max wore his mask in NICU, I compared him to Bain, played by Tom Hardy, who ended up playing Max.

And yes, watching Road Warrior on repeat in college is one reason I loved the name Max. The warrior Max.

Max is 2!

It was Max’s birthday!
I made him a nice sign.


It has all the best stuff. Monkeys, stars, giraffes, big letters. And my own unique style.



Also, Maxy’s Mommy and Daddy took off of work and jumped from a plane!



Then, Max’s Polish grandparents drove down to visit him.

Max’s birthday is a family holiday for everyone every year.

Better From A Star

A couple of weeks, I went to see Neutral Milk Hotel.
This is the group that penned the lyric “The Earth Looks Better From A Star, That’s Right Above From Where You Are” as featured on Max’s tombstone.

It was one of my favorite quotes before, and even more now, obvs.

Anyway, I brought a printout of it, and stood around after and got a dude from the band to sign it.

Pretty great. Especially since the band hadn’t toured around for like 10+ years.

I dig it.

Neutral Milk Hotel